Undone (continued)

Into the cavern I run
Barely escaping the devastation around me
Safety is all I crave
Delving deeper into the dark
Twists and turns each leading down a new tunnel
I move faster feet hardly touching the ground
I must escape
I run for what seems like hours
Then find myself in a grand hall
I catch my breath
Listening for sounds off the stone
Relief finds me
I begin to unpack
Self illumination brightens my safe haven
A glow fixates my eyes to see
Contempt I place against the wall he seems tired
Regret slowly pulled out and set beside time wasted
Grief unwinds and slinks across its new home
Self preservation breathes a sigh as it sits in silence
Self doubt creeps out and wraps me in its cloak
The great room swiftly fills with familiar faces
Inadequacy bounces around the room checking in with everyone
loneliness sits quietly brooding 

Resentment revolting the senses with a rancid putrid nearly Inhumane smell

hurt sat bandaged demanding attention from all surrounding him lust was surrounded by her harem including seduction, addiction, manipulation and want 

tortured and bruised innocence is dragged along behind this Entourage 

Lust checked on Innocence with a light caress down her check, Innocence flinched in terror

Manipulation split from the group to visit control who was spinning a delicate web that resembled lace

I looked up and locked eyes with Sadness who was craving what she could never have

My heart broke

Brokenness emerged piecing itself together the best it could with self reliance's help

Envy and Jealousy locked arms intertwining almost as one single being

Gluttony stuffed her face with all the sweets one could imagine

idiocy counts to ten on his fingers taking breathes of stupidity when he forgets 

duplicity mimics its mirror image all the while spewing only lies and rumors 

panic has hidden himself under a bearskin rug giggling with glee

self fulfillment chases after lust and her friends barely keeping up

unlovely makes her rounds hidden by her hair
hatred seethes as he encounters his comrades in arms
complacency pulses lethargy in a slow dance to the echoes of the noise
isolation leans in close
"Isn't it better alone?"
manipulation gestures fluently as she draws more into her web
Undesired glances away a often as she looks up
Pain greets loss and whispers in the corner
Pride holds tightly to family missed
Reunions begin false pride introduces worthlessness and pity

He hugs arrogance tightly with a smug grin
Ominous threats of anarchy echo off the stone
Unhappiness has come breathing atmospheric fog
It seeps into the crevices of the rock
Death holds dreams and desires in a small guided cage as he struts around touching everything leaving his mark
I sit back to watch
Depression has entered throwing out oppression before him eagerly
Heartbreak emerges leaving sobbing in its wake
Defeat triumphantly takes precedence 

I am shattered trying unsuccessfully to disappear into the cold stone wall
Chaos erupts

But wait...
A hush
Not a pin drop
Light comes from a tunnel
I cower in fears embrace
Stepping into the room
Three huge figures clothed in light
No word equivalent adequate
I gulp
Majestic yet humble
Holy yet tangible
Awesome and wonderful
Does he see me?
Can he see what I've done?
Will he be angry?
Why did I run?
They stop at the entrance
Light emanating so sharp
All must hide their eyes
Some fall directly to their knees
Others mock openly
Justification stands to my aid
Then steps quickly aside
His Loud resounding voice
"Where is my child?
Where is my girl?"
Slowly rise to my feet
Shaking like an addict in need of a fix
I step then I stumble
Only to fall into my savior arms
Weeping profusely
"Lord I just wanted safety
I just wanted peace"
His grip tightening
Voice louder
"peace be still
She is mine
I bought her in full
I paid the price
Let her go!"
Screaming and gnashing
Painful squeaks and groans
Terror
Then nothing
It is empty
The only two entered
Recognizing them at once
My savior a father
And my comforter and protector
I looked around the great hall
Another figure came through
Hope stepped in changing the hard stone to jewels
Faith Radiated light pushing until there was no dark

I wasn't alone

Panic giggled in the distance, I froze

Holy Spirit walked to the rug and stomped on his hidden form so hard he disappeared with a piteous scream
Warmth pulsed through my veins
Restoration stood and stepped into my gaze
They kept coming and coming
Filling up empty spaces
Truth walked up with no hesitation and stepped into my form
Healing was next she was liquidy and pliable flowing into every orifice
Pure love looked at me softly
eyes delving deep
"This might hurt a bit.
Because so many things are dead.
I'm sorry for the pain this will cause
But know without a doubt
You are loved."
With  not much more she dove into my being
Triggering every nerve ending
I felt fire then excruciating pain

Soul wrenching screams
As I came to life in every way
Feelings and thoughts
Dreams all but lost
Came crashing to life
Like a hurricane
Swirling and beating at unbelief And doubt
That had lodged themselves into my deepest dark parts
Cracking and breaking
The death split and stank
But pure love kept going
Reaching into the hole that held
All the hurt, guilt and remorse
Pure love she grabbed them all by the throat
They gargled her love down each and every drop
I felt the change as love rearranged deep in my core where
Hate had stained
Then instead of leaving
Pure love sat down
Into the center of my heart
She now was crowned
She seeped in the dark transforming to light
All of the things I could easily hide
Such overwhelming feelings
Pulsing and quaking
Moving and shaking
My heart remaking
Nothing looked the same
My eyesight had changed
I was still held by my savior
Stroking my hair
"Do you not see how much love I have for you?
And I am not done
There's a lot more to do"
Joy pushed inside and took over my heart
"My salvation is here!"
I squealed with delight
You called me said Wisdom
"Here I am too
We all came cause the father asked us all to"
He said "she's mine
she's my blood
she's my love
She's asking for all of the help from above"
So understanding said "I'll go my lord"
Grace said "I'll fight by her side so she looks like you do when she breaks deep inside"
Peace cried "I'll go she needs me too when the storm rages on and she's tired each day"
The loudest was mercy she rang through the room "I'll stay quite close lord she needs me as well to flow like a river when she hits a dry spell"
My savior cries for me as he covers and holds me knowing my need 

I clung tighter and adjusted my hold but he never loosened or even let go

Covered in tattoos and aged scars new spirit came forward 

"my name is Deliverance

 I'll stand with you too

For you're the beloved"

A sword flew to his hand as he took command 

Lust was called up with all of her friends 

"Christina, you must tell them they can not stay. 

Give them to savior right away."

I nodded and said in barely a whisper 

"You must leave. I release you to the judgement of savior."

Savior pointed to Deliverance, Who swiftly executed them all right where they stood

More traitors were brought forward and executing commenced

Savior looked me right in the eye 

"Christina some want to stay and say they have right.

Please give me their contracts and any trinkets they gave you "

Words produced diamonds, bracelets and rings

Some the most beautiful I'd ever seen

But yet they were tainted 

something was off

I looked more closely

Surprised at the view

Where each of the jewelry was touching my skin 

Festering and burns left the skin singed 

I quickly removed every item I saw and gave them to savior 

Where are the contracts I thought in my head 

Suddenly papers appeared in my hand

I gave them to savior as quick as I could 

I looked at my savior his gaze never faltering

ashamed I lowered my gaze and dropped to my knees in spite of the pain

I was a mess