Undone

Christina Rice

Into the cavern I run
Barely escaping the devastation around me
Safety is all I crave
Delving deeper into the dark
Twists and turns each leading down a new tunnel
I move faster feet hardly touching the ground
I must escape
I run for what seems like hours
Then find myself in a grand hall
I catch my breath
Listening for sounds off the stone
Relief finds me
I begin to unpack
Self illumination brightens my safe haven
A glow fixates my eyes to see
Contempt I place against the wall he seems tired
Regret slowly pulled out and set beside time wasted
Grief unwinds and slinks across its new home
Self preservation breathes a sigh as it sits in silence
Self doubt creeps out and wraps me in its cloak
The great room swiftly fills with familiar faces
Inadequacy bounces around the room checking in with everyone
loneliness sits quietly brooding unlovely makes her rounds hidden by her hair 
hatred seethes as he encounters his comrades in arms
complacency pulses lethargy in a slow dance to the echoes of the noise
isolation leans in close
Isnt it better alone?
manipulation gestures fluently as she draws more into her web
Undesired glances away a often as she looks up
Pain greets loss and whispers in the corner
Pride holds tightly to family missed
Reunions begin false pride introduces worthlessness and pity
Ominous threats of anarchy echo off the stone
Unhappiness has come breathing atmospheric fog
It seeps into the crevices of the rock
Death holds dreams and desires in a small guided cage as he struts around touching everything leaving his mark
I sit back to watch
Depression has entered throwing out oppression before him eagerly
Heartbreak emerges leaving sobbing in its wake
Defeat triumphantly takes precedence
Chaos erupts
A hush
Not a pin drop
Light comes from a tunnel
I cower in fears embrace
Stepping into the room
Three huge figures clothed in light
No word equivalent adequate
I gulp
Majestic yet humble
Holy yet tangible
Awesome and holy
Does he see me?
Can he see what I've done?
Will he be angry?
Why did I run?
They stop at the entrance
Light emanating so sharp
All must hide their eyes
Some fall directly to their knees
Others mock openly
Justification stands to my aid
Then steps quickly aside
His Loud resounding voice
Where is my child?
Where is my girl?
Slowly rise to my feet
Shaking like an addict in need of a fix
I step then I stumble
Only to fall into my savior arms
Weeping profusely
Lord I just wanted safety
I just wanted peace
His grip tightening
Voice louder
peace be still
She is mine
I bought her in full
I paid the price
Let her go!
Screaming and gnashing
Painful squeaks and groans
Terror
Then nothing
It is empty
The only two entered
Recognizing them at once
My savior a father
And my comforter and protector
I looked around the great hall
Another figure came through
Hope stepped in changing the hard stone to jewels
Faith Radiated truth and justice
Wisdom she was beauty
I wasn't alone
Warmth pulsed through my veins
Restoration stood and stepped into my gaze
They kept coming and coming
Filling up empty spaces
Truth walked up with no hesitation and stepped into my form
Healing was next she was liquidy and pliable flowing into every orifice
Pure love looked at me softly
eyes delving deep
This might hurt a bit.
Because so many things are dead.
I'm sorry for the pain this will cause
But know without a doubt
You are loved.
With much more she dove into my being
Triggering every nerve ending
I felt fire then excruciating pain
As I came to life in every way
Feelings and thoughts
Dreams all but lost
Came crashing to life
Like a hurricane
Swirling and beating at unbelief And doubt
That had lodged themselves into my deepest dark parts
Cracking and breaking
The death split and stank
But pure love kept going
Reaching into the hole that held
All the hurt, guilt and remorse
Pure love she grabbed them all by the throat
They gargled her love down each and every drop
I felt the change as love rearranged deep in my core where
Hate had stained
Then instead of leaving
Pure love sat down
Into the center of my heart
She now was crowned
She seeped in the dark transforming to light
All of the things I could easily hide
Such overwhelming feelings
Pulsing and quaking
Moving and shaking
My heart remaking
Nothing looked the same
My eyesight had changed
I was still held by my savior
Stroking my hair
Do you not see how much love I have for you?
And I am not done
There's a lot more to do
Joy pushed inside and took over my heart
My salvation is here!
I squealed with delight
You called me said Wisdom
Here I am too
We all came cause the father asked us all to
He said she's mine
she's my blood
she's my love
She's asking for all of the help from above
So understanding said I'll go my lord
Grace said I'll fight by her side so she looks like you do when she breaks deep inside
Peace cried I'll go she needs me too when the storm rages on and she's tired each day
The loudest was mercy she rang through the room I'll stay quite close lord she needs me as well to flow like a river when she hits a dry spell
My savior cries for me as he covers and holds me knowing my need
Each greeting me warmly
And giving a gift